A Sky Full of Stars
We are so small in the grand scheme of things. Life is so fragile. I went star gazing last night and it was one of the most breathtaking experiences of my life. The whole time I was there I kept thinking of all the science & theory behind how earth came to be. Physics was always a subject I had a hard time grasping my head around because of how complex and abstract it is. The speed of light is such an amazing phenomenon. Staring at the stars made me realize how tiny we are. We are so tiny in comparison to what the universe is. It just reinforces the notion that you shouldn’t take life so seriously. Today we are here, tomorrow is not guaranteed. Whether you believe in the Big Bang Theory or in a higher power, life is what we have in common, we are living beings. And as far as I know, nobody is immortal. Death is inevitable. So while we are alive in this dimension (if you believe in afterlife/heaven) why not make it count?
This week has been one of the hardest for me emotionally. But God knows I suck at asking for help, I just mask it all with humor and pretend I’m good. That catches up to you at some point. Thanks to a few close friends, family, and my favorite person aka my husband, I have felt the love and support to make the decision to initiate this healing journey. I’m eternally thankful for the times these individuals have reached out to me, given me a little bit of their time, but most of all have told me it’s ok to feel. I don’t know why I have this shame attached to pain or sadness. But I am on a mission to tear that down.
So if there is one thing I want you to take away from this entry it’s this: it’s ok to ask for help, you are not weak if you do. In fact, it is the complete opposite. Life is hard, but it can be beautiful too… just like those stars out there. *cue A Sky Full of Stars by Coldplay lol…. (I couldn’t resist)
Ok wait one more thing. Guess who saw the Milky Way on her first time star gazing?!! And though I went unprepared, I managed to take some pics and let me tell you I was very proud of myself. For it to be my first attempt, it was pretty damn good. Astrophotography sparked a new fire in me (pun intended). My first time stargazing will be highlighted by two things: 1. Capturing the Milky Way 2. Being grateful to be alive.
Below is my favorite shot of this night.
Milky Way
Couldn’t think of a more perfect song to go along with this entry. My favorite verse is:
“I don't care, go on and tear me apart
I don't care if you do, ooh
'Cause in a sky, 'cause in a sky full of stars
I think I saw you”
