Dear Mel: Chill Out

*WARNING* This is going to be a self reflective journal entry I am intentionally making public. Vulnerable content ahead. You’ve been warned lol..

I can be a lot for my friends and family. I sometimes have the energy of an energizer bunny and am super hyper. Other times I do not want to be disturbed, bothered. I usually am at one of the two extremes, there is very rarely a happy medium between the two.. but I am working on finding that balance. I also know that I am certainly not everyone’s cup of tea and that is cool. But for the first time in my life, I feel like I have a better grasp on the manner in which I react and still have loads of work to do. I am very quick to react whenever I do not like something, there is no hiding it, you will see it on my face lol. And I will admit, I need to chill out and pick my battles. I do not have to have the last word, I do have to communicate my needs and wants. I do not have to fill a room with my uncomfortable silence. It is no solution and only a catalyst for isolation.

Note to self: Listen more, talk less. Ask if they are looking for an opinion before providing one. Lean into other’s feelings and try to understand rather than question why. Last but not least, admit you are wrong. Own it and move on.

Stay groovy folks.

SN: I tried skittles gummies this week and I was heavily disappointed. Lifesaver gummies (berry blast flavor) are still #1.

I appreciate the guitar melody in the beginning so much. One thing about this genre of music, it has a particular way of bringing out your feelings lol.. much like Vallenato. This song has been in my head on repeat.